
I had lots of other things to talk about, but I have to get this off my chest so I can just move on.
We had our first assignment due for my Sustainable Business class last night.
I totally blew it.
I may have mentioned that we had to learn a pretty complicated diagramming system for this project. Not only was I having technical difficulties, but I somehow missed the simpleness of the instructions and turned the written portion into something totally off the mark.
THEN, to make matters unbelievably worse, I volunteered to go first to show my diagram because no one else was stepping up. My diagram was very very basic (it looked like a balloon animal), and the teacher was very kind about explaining how that wasn’t quite what they were looking for. Then I really realized that even my written portion was a complete digression when what they really wanted was a very cut-and-dry outline of what an article had said. Period. No extrapolation or additional research, no footnotes, no photo. It was like I had written “How I spent my summer vacation” while everyone had seen the directions exactly as written.
Everyone else’s diagrams looked like they’d been doing them their whole lives.
I was mortified.
I was Elle in Legally Blonde.
Now not everyone got up so I didn’t see everyone’s work, but I’m really stunned that in a room of 20 people, I could be the only one who didn’t get it. The other students have been working together for a quarter already so maybe they checked with each other, but still. Yes, it’s possible I’m the dumbest one in the class, which would be a new experience for me, but maybe one that I need to learn quickly. (How many calories are there in Humble Pie?)
Somehow I need to get over this.
The good news is that everything else this quarter is a group project so I’m bound to stay on track (and I will work on my diagramming skills though I hope to NEVER have to use them ever again), and I expect to be a valuable member of my team.
I just hope I “get it” in the future.
Have you ever felt like you just didn’t get it while everyone else around you did?